Attempting to Avoid Burnout

This past month has been quite a crazy one for me when it comes to finding employment. I have been applying to jobs for a couple months and now I have found myself struggling. I have met with mentors, I have redone my resume dozens of times, and I have built this online portfolio.

Funny enough, after building the portfolio, I did finally start getting some bites. It felt validating, it felt hopeful and then POOF. It went quiet again. I recently interviewed with a dream company. I went through three rounds of interviews and each time I was passed up, I really got my hopes up. This was a chance to find employment that was fulfilling, to find an employer who valued their employees and proved it with their benefits, but I did not get that job.

After not getting the dream job, I found myself a little lost. I feel like at my age, I have all the experience I can, having held positions in a vast amount of industries, being so self taught, I just felt destroyed. What I did learn from this is that no matter how polished you are, or how authentic and present you are in the interviewing process, they are looking for something specific. I had just had all those feelings of hope and excitement, then a quick switch up to defeat and doubt. I am a great candidate. I am creative, driven, hardworking, and a self starter. A company will come along that sees this, and I will continue to push forward and be relentless in my job search.

My grandma use to run a non-profit before she passed. She had branded herself as a "shameless beggar" and something about that phrase has always been so powerful. I have found inspiration in her life and how she made things happen. Dropping my pride and ego will lead me even further in this process, I just need to channel my "shameless beggar". They say beggars can't be choosers, but I look forward to debunking that myth and starting in a role (when it comes), that allows me to do so.